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10月2日 And I never really liked Keats.Ode to PsycheO Goddess! hear these tuneless numbers, wrung O latest born and loveliest vision far O brightest! though too late for antique vows, Yes, I will be thy priest, and build a fane
6月27日 Another blinding quiz surprise.Hrmm... check 1st degree.... NOPE,not me.
Check 2nd degree and preivous career. *ARSE* They categorised me!!!!!! Fuckers. 6月15日 Get out, stay out.Dark-brow’d sophist, come not anear;
All the place is holy ground; Hollow smile and frozen sneer Come not here. Holy water will I pour Into every spicy flower Of the laurel-shrubs that hedge it around. The flowers would faint at your cruel cheer. In your eye there is death, There is frost in your breath Which would blight the plants. Where you stand you cannot hear From the groves within The wild-bird’s din. In the heart of the garden the merry bird chants. It would fall to the ground if you came in. In the middle leaps a fountain Like sheet lightning, Ever brightening With a low melodious thunder; All day and all night it is ever drawn From the brain of the purple mountain Which stands in the distance yonder. It springs on a level of bowery lawn, And the mountain draws it from heaven above, And it sings a song of undying love; And yet, tho’ its voice be so clear and full, You never would hear it, your ears are so dull; So keep where you are; you are foul with sin; It would shrink to the earth if you came in. ~Tennyson, The Poet's Mind. 5月9日 Limbo. No. Not with a pole, you fool!
Samuel Taylor Cloeridge. 4月7日 You either get it or you don't. ;)Epistle II. Know then thyself, presume not God to scan,
From An Essay on Man, Alexander Pope. 3月10日 Officially SchizoidApprently I'm schizoid with a no tendancies towards depenadance or avoidance. Now that explains a lot!!!!
3月1日 Thought of the Restless DayEarth's AnswerEarth rais'd up her head,From the darkness dread & drear, Her light fled: Stony dread! And her locks cover'd with grey despair. Prison'd on watry shore, Starry jealousy does keep my den Cold and hoar Weeping o'er I hear the father of the ancient men Selfish father of men Cruel jealous selfish fear Can delight Chain'd in night The virgins of youth and morning bear. Does spring hide its joy When buds and blossoms grow? Does the sower? Sow by night? Or the plowman in darkness plow? Break this heavy chain, That does freeze my bones around Selfish! vain! Eternal bane! That free Love with bondage bound. ~Blake; Songs of Experience 1月16日 Must be MondayThe expense of spirit in a waste of shame Is lust in action; and till action, lust Is perjured, murderous, bloody, full of blame, Savage, extreme, rude, cruel, not to trust; Enjoy'd no sooner but despised straight; Past reason hunted; and no sooner had, Past reason hated, as a swallowed bait, On purpose laid to make the taker mad: Mad in pursuit, and in possession so; Had, having, and in quest to have, extreme; A bliss in proof, and proved, a very woe; Before, a joy proposed; behind, a dream. All this the world well knows; yet none knows well To shun the heaven that leads men to this hell. (Shakespeare Sonnet 129) 12月21日 ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHGoddamnmotherfucking fukers.
That's it.
Thank you for listening.
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![]() nice one, You are a BUTCH lesbian, Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code12月1日 Gaynor's Eulogy.My mother chose her sister's eulogy today.
She has the capacity to suprise me in the sweetest ways.
Remember me when I am gone away,
Gone far away into the silent land; When you can no more hold me by the hand, Nor I half turn to go yet turning stay. Remember me when no more day by day. You tell me of our future that you plann'd: Only remember me; you understand It will be late to counsel then or pray. Yet if you should forget me for a while And afterwards remember, do not grieve: For if the darkness and corruption leave A vestige of the thoughts that once I had, Better by far you should forget and smile Than that you should remember and be sad. -Christina Rosesetti
11月29日 Ya Realy Wanted to Know?1. Time of starting? 14:38
2. Were you named after anyone? My Grandmother.
3. Do you wish on stars? Only shooting stars.
4. When did you last cry? Sunday 6th November, 2005.
5. Do you like your handwriting? Nope, its legible and practical and scientific. Looks sheeaite.
6. What is your favourite meat? Duck.
7. Any bad habits? Many.
8. What is your most embarrassing CD on your shelf? The Nemi Collection. Norwegian goth is baid. M'kay
9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? Yes. If I could understand me.
10. Are you a daredevil? Some days.
11. Have u ever told a secret you swore not to tell? Only once. Sorry Loli.
12. How many pople have u fancied and never told? I have no idea.
13. How do you release anger? I don't get angry. I get even.
14. Where is your second home? Duncan's.
15. Who is the craziest of all your friends? Sammie.
16. What was your favourite toy as a child? A swing.
17. Strangest nightmare? Being chased by dark, oily creatures that stank of death and had no material substance at all. I'm sure they were out of the pits of hell. I had so much adrenalin running through my system, I couldn't move for about a minute after I woke up. That's possibly at the top of a very, very long list.
18. Nicest dream? Nope, I've tried and failed to think of one!
19. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Profusely.
20. Have you ever been in a posh house? Yup.
21. Describe your taste of music? Heavy and angry. Apparently I'm repressed.
22. What do you look for in a guy? There is *nothing* worth looking for in men.
23. Would you bungee jump? No height is a fear I haven't conquered yet. Actually, hell ya. I would.
24. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? Yes
25. Ice cream flavour? Right now: mint choc chip.
26. Favourite number? 13, of course.
27. What are your favourite colours? Black and blue and red all over.
28. What is your least favourite thing? Getting up when I haven't slept.
30. How many ppl do u have a crush on right now? I don't remember the last time I had a crush!
31. What do you miss most right now? Having my own place.
32. What colour underwear are you wearin? Red red red baby.
33. What are you listening to right now? Prison Sex by Tool.
34. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Steel Grey.
35. What is the weather like right now? I haven't got a clue due the windowless orifice that I am sat in.
36. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? Socially: my mother, who is apparently cooler than me. And off her rocker.
37. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? I notice that they don't have tits.
38. Do you like the person who sent you this? They're a random stranger. So probably.
39. How are you today? Quietly seething in my little pit of rage over the futility of existence.
40. Favorite drink? Caffe Met Hazelatte. Milk of the gods.
41. Favourite alcoholic drink? Laphraoig whisky. Or any good single malt, preferably with a peaty taste.
42. What is your favourite sport? Jujitsu in most incarnations.
43. Natural hair colour? Indiscriminately muddy.
44. Eye colour? Me? I'm a green eyed monster.
45. Wear contacts? Just the one.
46. Siblings? One adopted big bro.
47. Favourite month? May.
48. Favourite food? I love all food. Which is why I'm 7 stone??? Maybe vegetable curry.
49. Last movie you watched? The Corpse Bride.
from matthew smiuth 11月28日 Requiescat
Oscar Wilde.
11月25日 Looking BeautifulI never thought that someone who is dying could look beautiful. Everything you hear says that the cancer racks your body. She just looks beautiful. I know it's the temperature that gives her the rosy glow, it's the cancer and the organ failure that's darkened her eyes but as she lies there, she looks more beautiful now than I ever remember.
I've seen pictures of her as a girl and a young woman and she was indeed stunning. Dark and rosy and full. Its as if she's returning to the essesnce of herself. It is true that she is the sweetest woman I have ever known. The people continually going into and out of the ward over these last few days have been a testament to her nature.
Each day there is a little less. Each night is the hardest. Everyone leaves with the assurance that they will see her and each other in the morning. Each one of us affirming that she will not leave in the night and we will have a little more time to watch her slip away. Each one of us casting the same worried glance at her husband as he watches relentlessly in the chair at her left hand side, holding the hand closest to her heart which beats too fast for a woman so ill and on so much morphine.
There has been so much laughter around her bed. There always has been laughter around her. Now she's surrounded by it as people talk around her, putting off the uncomfortable silences when everyone stops and catches sight of her sleeping face. She hears the laughter. She complains each time the phone rings. She hears the talk. I don't know where she believes she is right now, or where the pain and the morphine have put her; possibly she believes she is still at home. I hope the laughter is the sound she hears the most and that she realises that the laughter is the sound that she has bought to the world.
Maybe it will be tonight. She's failed a lot in the last 48 hours. Its a lingering process and the vigil of family and friends has gone on for days. She stopped finally drinking 2 days ago. How her body persists, I do not know.
So I will stop writing this. I will stop avoiding the inevitable. I will stop inviting the inevitable to happen while I am late to the hospital, in hope that I will not have to see it. Or to see the rest of the family watching it.
I'm gone. 11月16日 Thought of the Day
WITCHCRAFT BY A PICTURE. by John Donne I fix mine eye on thine, and there Pity my picture burning in thine eye ; My picture drown'd in a transparent tear, When I look lower I espy ; Hadst thou the wicked skill By pictures made and marr'd, to kill, How many ways mightst thou perform thy will? But now I've drunk thy sweet salt tears, And though thou pour more, I'll depart ; My picture vanished, vanish all fears That I can be endamaged by that art ; Though thou retain of me One picture more, yet that will be, Being in thine own heart, from all malice free. 11月15日 Thought of the Day
11月14日 Thought of the DayI don't update this enough.
Thought of the day. Guaranteed to last for one day only. :@)
Human Abstract (W. Blake)
Pity would be no more If we did not make somebody poor, And Mercy no more could be If all were as happy as we. And mutual fear brings Peace, Till the selfish loves increase; Then Cruelty knits a snare, And spreads his baits with care. He sits down with holy fears, And waters the ground with tears; Then Humility takes its root Underneath his foot. Soon spreads the dismal shade Of Mystery over his head, And the caterpillar and fly Feed on the Mystery. And it bears the fruit of Deceit, Ruddy and sweet to eat, And the raven his nest has made In its thickest shade. The gods of the earth and sea Sought through nature to find this tree, But their search was all in vain: There grows one in the human Brain. 8月29日 I am so BOREDI am very, very bored.
I broke my foot last Monday. To be precise someone else broke it be folding it in two for me. I need to come to terms with the fact that I am neary 30, 5'1" and 7st and that I should not attempt to take on pro cage fighters in training. Especially the young ones who have a lot left to learn!!!!!
Damn.
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